Howdy people? it's been a long time since i last posted a something to my boring blog. I know, I know, my blog is darn boring.

with the scattered margin,

the sentences and posts are not well-written.

haishh.. i guess i should go to english class to fix my language.

anyway, I just wanna say, life is about being aware, which means, you have to drunkenly, joyously, serenely, divinely aware.savvy?

till then~ i wanna sleep now.

When life gets tougher, you should be tougher, parallel to your life.

premise 1: This statement is great

premise 2: Nea Anira(Nuranira) wrote this statement

conclusion: Nea Anira(Nuranira) is a great person.

Okay, I just published a post that I won't update my blog. It's true okay.

But I really need to publish this post. I'm afraid if I don't have much time on earth. It's now or never. If I die tomorrow, I have no regret to say that I once have the spirit to continue my life.

I came across the story of a little girl from a website. She was 14, and died because of skin cancer. After I read her blog, I was like.. She wanted to live so badly but she didn't have that chance. But me? I remember I had thought to suicide, once, back in my college.

Silly me huh? It wasn't my intention to suicide, it just that I didn't found the purpose of my life. For me Life is a pain harsh. Too harsh that has left bruises and wounds in my heart.

That girl was 14, and she found hers. She wished to become a doctor and help people. Open a charity house and help the orphan. How sweet for a 14 years old, aight?

But ME? I am 18, I achieved, NOTHING at all! And yet I wished to die. How stupid I was. I never seen life as a good thing. I know I wasn't born to become a quitter. But I have no reasons or no game to win at. I fear everything in my life.

People may see me as a tough person that could through my days boldly back to the five previous years(you know where I was). Frankly, they've seen nothing. In fact they're no one to predict how my life is and who am I.

I know I still got long way to go. But I also know, one day, one fine day, I'll find my own purpose! And by that day, I know that my life is precious...

Okay, now this is the deal, I won't sign in/log in to any of my social networking nor blog unless I lost 5 kg? alright pal? wish me luck okay! I'm just trying to motivate myself. I need to move on..

I wanna be a better person. Nonetheless, I'm not saying I am now a bad person. It's just that I wanna be better. I don't expect that everybody will like me and adore me. I'm tired of being blunt, cynic and dumb.

Prophet Muhammad SAW's flight form Mecca to Medina to bring the muslims out from the misery and ti make their life better.

SO DO I! I NEED TO MOVE ON!